-thump, thump, thump- goes my son inside my womb...

We are 25 weeks pregnant and I am loving every precious moment of it. He is growing well... I worry still but not crazily like I did in those first few months. He is Luke Aaronsen, named after the two greatest men in my life... Pregnancy is the most incredible experience of my life and I can't wait to do it again and again.

I pity anyone who has grown away from me to miss out on such an adventure. But, oddly, I seem to be folding inward into a world that is full of me, my mate and my son alone. Despite my desire for relationships throughout my life, they have all fallen away in some way or another... whether by my doing or theirs. Pregnancy is an awesome time to cut out the old to nurse the new.

My lovely is in NY again so I am up and doing whatever I want! So, I cleaned house and mixed up some massage oils. Potchoulli, peppermint, almond, cinnamon and chocolate... yum. Now, I am getting a little sleepy. I thought I'd make it to 2 am but maybe not. -yawn- I am also on vacation 'til Friday! Yay! Watching Colbert... He's funny and easy on the eyes.

I am mainly on facebook now... I really love it... not sure why but what a trip to find everybody you know and keep up with them on hourly life! I should be at www.facebook.com/julieparker. My comp doesn't agree with FB so I won't be able to update til my hubby gets home so I can use his laptop.

For anyone who doesn't know and I'm sure I mentioned that I was trying to get pregnant... Getting pregnant is easy! LOL I am in my 15th week and very happy. It's been such a gentle pregnancy. We've heard the heartbeat (sweet!) and are waiting to get an ultrasound in a few weeks. I can now feel my baby (and growing uterus) under my hand. So in love with Baby!

I love goofing off. But it can't last.

I got up at 4AM with Aaron and stayed up to Ebay shop (for the first time, ever!), play with kitties, watch 'Beauty and the Beast' of the DVR (((I LOVE DVRs!!!))) keep up on here and Facebook and check on my sites (alittle). Alas, I gotta clean house, reorganize my room, work on a business plan, do a 30 minute massage this afternoon and shop. Tomorrow is shot and Wednesday is a work day.

Boy did I get the kittens this year. Holy smokes! I made sure to nueter all mine but, no, they keep showing up anyway. One orphan back in April (Anna) who got injured a couple of days ago but is making a fine recovery. Four from my mom's cat whom she adopted (Easter, Christian, April and Sundee). And I caught a litter of ferals and the were all pretty much blinded by an eye infection... which has been treated and they are getting healthier by the day (no names yet). And tamer! Now I just have to catch their mom so she won't make more babies. You'd think a cat wouldn't be that much smarter than me but...

An I just ran off and cooked BBQ broccoli! Yum! Gonna eat!

Thanks to a couple of friends (mainly Miss Holiday) for getting me to undelete my journal. I've had it for such a long time and I didn't think anyone was reading. But... I guess it doesn't matter.

So, for this journal, I'll just update real quick on a couple of things.

We are not pregnant (but Aaron has been MIA for about 3 weeks)... "send it through the mail, honey"... Ah, well, I still don't really have a doctor yet, anyway.

I got paid nicely for a trip to the beach to do a few massages. I did all the driving myself and made it home before I expected. SWEET! If I could do that twice a week, I'd quit the factory!

I am very, very exited to have completed that Reiki II class. That type of energy work is absolutly amazing. If anyone is interested in energy work... look in to Reiki. I also plan on continuing to the Reiki Master attunement.

Is loving FaceBook. Why? I have no idea. I just do.

Thanks, guys!

I am feeling a little weird lately. Kind of... I don't know... not melancoly, really. And not quite defensive... Honestly, more than ever, I just feel like staying in bed with husband (unfortunately, he's not quite cooperative with that, LOL)...

Maybe it's him. I just got done giving him a massage and I was noticing all the stuff I love about his body. His body hair pattern, his freckles, his pink feet and how his skin feels on my palms. But, luckily, it goes quite a bit deeper than that. His smile, gosh and his voice!... His humor, how steadfast he is with me... how tender he is with me... his manliness, stubbornness and patience.

I don't know how I got so lucky. Four years of marriage, eight years of knowing him and I just want more. What would I do without him? How can someone move on from loosing a love like than? I know anyone reading this would ask why I would bother thinking such things... but, honestly, I would rather contemplate the worst to appreciate what I have than expect it to be with me forever and not miss it 'til it's gone.

I think I'll add 'The ABCs of Aaron' to my 'Adoring Aaron' website. I haven't really updated it with any real content for a while.

-yawn- Maybe I will feel better tomorrow. I better! I have a massage in the morning, work at the factory tomorrow night and I don't get to see my Aaron until Monday morning! Darn conflicting schedules...

It's 12:28 am and I'm sitting with Aaron waiting to go to bed. I was suppose to go to work but got out of it due to a little... fire at work (and not getting the message to go in until after the shift started). Anyway... I'm home! Yay!

We had our Fourth Anniversary in April, unfortunatly, my Aaron was a very sick fellow. He had sepsis from bursitis in his arm that laid him out flat. BUT... we did toss out the old birth control pills. Baby-makin' time! We are healthily nervous but we are getting old... er... older, LOL. So, we need to expand our family while our health is with us. I have to find a birth doctor... somebody. I had a prepregancy interview but that ass was not worth the copay. I've been taking my vitamins correctly and I feel GREAT!

I've been laid off a couple of times from work and I've got a ton of stuff done. SO HAPPY about that! So, now, I am really focusing on getting the hypnosis business open and ready to help people. -shew!-

Exiting.

The snow is melting away but not before I made me and my man snow cream (yum) and saw two mini snow men in other people's yards. The snow got me out of work which is rockin' since we have overtime at the factory since the layoff last week. Stupid! Why lay off all those people just so they can force us to come in on someone else's shift. Man, I hate that shift.

Aaron and I are enjoying the day by trying to do as little as possible. I'd just as soon stay home with him than do anything else. It's warm, safe, fun, sweet and full of giggles. If I could be here with him... well, I assume that if I can die and go to heaven (which I have been told by way too many Christians that I will NOT be partaking of God's domain) then this is where I'd go. Right back home with Mister Hubby with everyone safe and sound. Well... maybe to a bigger house... and alittle warmer, LOL. Three months to our fourth anniversary and we'll celebrate by throwing away my birthcontrol pills (as long as all goes well).

I'm still so tired. It's never been this bad before. Aaron blames night shift... I started taking vitamins incase I am deficient in something. I can only stay awake for 12 or 13 hours at the time before I absolutly crash. And the time I am awake by body is weak and my mind can't concentrate. -sigh- I remember what energy felt like... this ain't it.

A Monkey???? What?

That's pretty darn funny since my husband yells "Look, honey, you're on tv!" every time he sees a Chimp on the tube... he's gonna love this. -roll eyes-

After like... what... 4...5 years? I have a new look for my journal! AMAZING! And purple... I told myself I wouldn't choose purple then I was like... and? So? I like purple and so it was purple and it was good.

I am so HERE!

For some reason I am suddenly finding time to do stuff. What the stuff? Me.. with time? I feel great! I have talked to ALL THREE Force Sisters, messed with my sites, snuggled the hubby, cleaned the house, got two cats fixed, shopped... and, dude, I feel FANTABULOUS!